Looking to the sky

Sometimes life is difficult. Like A LOT of times. And sometimes I don't even know what is making it difficult. It just is. In those times I relate to David- "Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me?" Sometimes it's like my heart is so heavy within me that it draws my eyes down to the earth, and the action of looking to the sky is just too difficult of a task to bear. 

My favorite definition for depression is "to be lacking or void of all hope." No hope for today, no hope for tomorrow, no hope even for this moment. 

I find myself having to fight this a lot. Having to decide to decide to hope. But these little decisions are what make the difference. Because when we decide to finally look up or forward, away from ourselves, then that leads us to the next little decision- to take one step, putting one foot in front of the other. And after that decision the next decision to put the other foot in front is a little less difficult and then, step by step, you start to pick up more momentum. Before you know it you will be walking {or maybe even running} into your future. You can do it. Make that decision to look up.

{Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation and my God.}